i have been reading <gaining> the truth about life after eating disorders
, and i am currently horrified. while i really do enjoy the book, i just read a part stating how much more likely you are to have an ed if you have family histories of depression, anxiety, any kind of substance abuse, and of course, ed's, are at a MUCH greater risk of developing ed's. i already knew this, but there was one part where you are supposed to map out your family tree and then pinpoint where those things occured. my family is RIDDLED with all of those, especially depression and alcoholism...and i am pretty convinced my mom and sister both have some disordered eating, themselves. it just made me think..i have two children.
i have two little girls, and they are like, 7893274847392734 times more likely to suffer with this horrible disease simply because of having ME as a mother. their BIOLOGICAL MOTHER is depressed, chronically very anxious, is a recovered alcoholic, and has had an ED for the vast majority of her life.
that doesn't give them the best outlook.
i am trying VERY hard to shield them from all of it, to tell them how amazingly smart and beautiful they are, to make sure that they know every second of every day that i love them more than ANYTHING, and i always will..i'm just really frightened for them. no, ed's are not genetic...but there is a very strong familial correlation.
part of me feels like if they DO end up having some of these behaviors or indicators, it would be my fault.
what do you guys think?? does anyone have some kind of experience with this that they can share with me? i feel just awful.