^ I know, it should have been obvious for me, too.
Just to explain myself in case I seem like an idiot...
Thing is, my grades and my 'intellectual functioning' (pssh, as if that can even be quantified) actually -supposedly- went up when I was starving, thus nurturing my delusion that anorexia was a performance enhancing mechanism.
In reality, I think anorexia just heightened my obsessiveness/perfectionism and made me willing to isolate and devote myself a little too whole-heartedly to school work – as opposed to truly making me 'smarter'.
(...it would have damaged my brain instead...)
*** The greatest challenge I faced in deciding to recover was letting go of the -false- belief that anorexia would make me a better and smarter person.
Sorry, I felt I needed to clarify the significance of this to me, in case it seems I was flippantly believing in some pro-ana mantra (not that anyone suggested I was